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shadesofbrixton replied to your post “tenderhook replied to your post “things i can’t stop thinking…”

I would like some advice on how you watch this show without the terrible writing distracting EVERYTHING. Because I loved season one and this season I just found really painful and filled with talking heads? HELP, I MISS MY SHOW.

idk, in a lot of ways i think i liked this season better but that’s largely because i’m deeply, deeply invested in will graham’s downward spiral and really want to watch terrible things happen to him mentally and physically. and the show very much delivered on that. there were obviously some aspects of this season i hated, in particular its treatment of its female characters, so i can’t say it’s a perfect show. if it’s the deeply melodramatic dialogue and unbelievable plots that are putting you off, though, then i don’t know how to advise! basically i think those will always be givens in hannibal lecter world? there’s definitely a lot of suspension of disbelief involved…. but i think, basically, for me personally, it comes down to the fact that at the end of the day i’m in it for hannibal and will interaction and will devour every scrap i am given and will forgive a lot of sins for that. such is the life of spook in fandom, though, really, the same could be said for a lot of media - there is a lot i will endure in the name of shipping.

ezra and donna might have more thoughts on this AWFUL PEOPLE CLUB ASSEMBLE

Filed under shadesofbrixton tenderhook iamthespacecadet sorry shit like this involves like analysing my own thoughts and understanding of things which i'm really bad at in some situations i'm great at critical thinking but other times nope i like the thing because thing??? because because murder boyfriends.... because inappropriate touching and homicidal undertones? i'm sorry i just don't know sometimes things just hit a switch in my brain and it just goes YES

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captainsway:

soooooo why didn’t bryan fuller ask any lesbians if they would sleep with straight men??? because i’m sure the response would’ve been VERY different
it’s a huge, disgusting fantasy for cishet men to be the dick that finally gets the lesbian
what the fuck why does anyone support this guy after this episode???

I’m pretty sure Fuller, a gay man who’s talked extensively in interviews before about how hard he’s had to fight with networks before in order to have any queer characters on his show at all, and how many times networks have told him no, you can’t have any, is being bitterly sarcastic here. In this case context is everything. This is not Bryan Fuller, well-known writer and gay man who is fully familiar with tropes about lesbians, saying cluelessly LOL I WENT AND TALKED TO SOME STRAIGHT MEN ABOUT HOT LESBIANS, this is Bryan Fuller saying “Fuck you, I’ve spent my entire profession battling for queer representation in my shows and being told no, time and again, but by god if you put a hot lesbian on TV and the studios can’t get enough, and by the way they really like it when the lesbian is really bi, and if this is the only way i can get queer representation on my mainstream NBC show because Hollywood is run by privileged het dudes, then I have to suck it up and so do you.”/opinion

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captainsway:

soooooo why didn’t bryan fuller ask any lesbians if they would sleep with straight men??? because i’m sure the response would’ve been VERY different

it’s a huge, disgusting fantasy for cishet men to be the dick that finally gets the lesbian

what the fuck why does anyone support this guy after this episode???

I’m pretty sure Fuller, a gay man who’s talked extensively in interviews before about how hard he’s had to fight with networks before in order to have any queer characters on his show at all, and how many times networks have told him no, you can’t have any, is being bitterly sarcastic here. In this case context is everything.

This is not Bryan Fuller, well-known writer and gay man who is fully familiar with tropes about lesbians, saying cluelessly LOL I WENT AND TALKED TO SOME STRAIGHT MEN ABOUT HOT LESBIANS, this is Bryan Fuller saying “Fuck you, I’ve spent my entire profession battling for queer representation in my shows and being told no, time and again, but by god if you put a hot lesbian on TV and the studios can’t get enough, and by the way they really like it when the lesbian is really bi, and if this is the only way i can get queer representation on my mainstream NBC show because Hollywood is run by privileged het dudes, then I have to suck it up and so do you.”

/opinion

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Filed under while i do think his response here is sarcastic as hell i'm not sure i'd interpret that the way this commentary is i'd like to give him the benefit of the doubt because lord am i still annoyed but i just don't know if this argument works for me also just saying sherlock pulled the massive queerbaiting wait here's a lesbian wait our straight male lead is the EXCEPTION thing like three years ago and it was bullshit then too

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Filed under so in the first book crichton kills him off but of course he was CRAZY POPULAR so when he wrote the lost world (which he wrote because they wanted to make a second film) he brought ian back to be the main character i'd like to think that if they'd followed the book faithfully everyone would've wanted a movie about sarah after the lost world came out because she's the fucking best in that book like not to hate on ian i love him but she is QUEEN of that book DAMN

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What is significant about fan fiction is that it often spins the kind of stories that showrunners wouldn’t think to tell, because fanficcers often come from a different demographic. The discomfort seems to be not that the shows are being reinterpreted by fans, but that they are being reinterpreted by the wrong sorts of fans - women, people of colour, queer kids, horny teenagers, people who are not professional writers, people who actually care about continuity (sorry). The proper way for cultural mythmaking to progress, it is implied, is for privileged men to recreate the works of privileged men from previous generations whilst everyone else listens quietly. That’s how it’s always been done. That’s how it should be done in the future, whatever Tumblr says.

But time can be rewritten. Myths can bend and change. Something new and exciting is happening in the world of storytelling, and fans are an important part of it.

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What Doctor Who and Sherlock offer us right now is a chance to see what modern fan fiction would look like if it was written by well-paid, well-respected middle-aged men with a big fat budget. That sort of fanfiction is usually referred to simply as fiction. Moffatt recently declared that Sherlock Holmes stories are fundamentally about “celebrating a clever man. Are they? I thought they were about the triumph of reason over superstition, the power of friendship, and derring-do. I have no more right to an opinion on this than Moffatt does - but no less, and nor does anyone else who loves the Sherlock stories, including whoever came up with the Watson Burger.

And that’s where the problem is. Moffat and Gatiss may write with one eye on their fanbase, but their ideal fanbase still looks a lot like them, which is what people of their demographic usually mean when they talk about writing for a “mainstream audience”. They write the sort of stories that would interest smart teenage boys who grew up in the 1970s and 1960s; stories about “clever men” in which women are dispensable love objects, figures of derision, or both. The pining, put-upon character of Molly Hooper inSherlock, one of the few characters with no easy equivalent in the original stories, is painful to watch as she mopes around after Holmes like a lovesick puppy. A lot of fanfic sets out to put that right, ensuring that Molly gets the boy, her own adventure, revenge, or all three.”

The dream-scenario in which Sherlock and Moriarty are actually lovers playing a trick on Watson and end up in a crafty rooftop clinch was so much fun that the people sitting either side of me as it aired had to hold me down lest I levitate off the sofa. The scene then cuts to a grumpy teenage member of a conspiracy club - a lovely cameo by Sharon Rooney - explaining that theSherlock elopes with his nemesis story is hardly less fanciful than anything anyone else has come up with. She’s dead right. Later in the series two men are stabbed with skewers but we’re supposed to believe they can’t feel it because their uniforms are too tight, and a train full of explosives at an abandoned underground station right under parliament somehow remains undetected until zero hour. All of these things are significantly less plausible than gay sex. I’m just saying.”

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Filed under twotwoonebee time and relative dimensions sherlock spoilers i guess? also gonna file this under spook's myriad issues with steven moffat because yeah

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Female-assigned intersex kids’ vaginal canal size is also assessed by doctors, to ensure that it’s long enough to fit a penis inside of it. Doctors might surgically construct or re-construct vaginas, which can result in a host of health problems and necessitate multiple, multiple surgeries. This is especially the case since most intersex kids have these surgeries very young, and when their bodies grow into their adult forms, more surgeries are necessary to keep their vagina size in proportion. Non-surgical methods are also used to increase or maintain vaginal length by regularly using medical dildos to stretch the vagina over months and years. (It’s kind of like braces for your vagina, but much, much worse.) Just like there are no standards for how long a clitoris “can” be before it’s classified as a penis, there aren’t absolute standards as to how long a vagina is for it to be of “normal” length.

I had a dilation procedure performed for almost every exam I had with intersex doctors from the time I was 8 until I was 16, so that they could check how long my vagina was as I grew. I absolutely hated these procedures. I mean, imagine a man as old as your father or your grandfather, who you don’t know, inserting a medical dildo into you each time you saw him, knowing that you can’t question the doctor’s orders and just accept that you have to undergo these uncomfortable procedures for your health. Imagine a decade or so later, realizing that these procedures did nothing to track your health, and had everything to do with grown men feeling good about the fact that you could fuck some dude someday like a “normal girl”. That all those traumatizing procedures weren’t actually medically relevant at all, and it actually was within my right to refuse those examinations.

I didn’t know any of that at the time.

I also had no idea that I wouldn’t want to ultimately have the kind of sex they assumed I’d be having, adding yet another layer of this-was-totally-unnecessary/messed-up to my history.

Other kids shouldn’t have to go through this. Other adults shouldn’t have revelations some day far into the future that what was happening to them WASN’T okay, and their traumatic feelings ARE valid, and the whole system of how intersex people are conceptualized and “treated” IS entirely fucked.

And it’s gotta change. We’ve gotta change it.

—-Claudia at Autostraddle

I just read this article and was reminded once again how invisible the intersex community often is… we need to signal boost this shit to let people know that this kind of “medical treatment” is NOT okay.

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so fucking disgusting there aren’t even words for it.

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when something qualifies as rape or sexual assault in any other context it should not become magically acceptable when doctors do it.  i don’t know why that’s such a difficult concept for people to understand.

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Filed under asdkjalskfjadkljgd god fuck okay tw: assault i guess because basically truth and beauty bombs god fucking i just i gotta go sit somewhere quiet for a minute sometimes shit is just so fucking horrifying why

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THE MIDDLE ONE OMG

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Filed under hey there hi there ho there hey have i ever mentioned that mulan and shang individually are my favourite disney leads and together they are like the most perfect relationship disney has ever portrayed because yeah all of those things also i mean i'm just saying she never got all WHY DIDN'T HE KISS ME because that is never the point of that movie i'm glad the creators understood that even if some fans apparently do not