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He waited until the train was in motion to make his move—a true sign of someone who knows how to make the environment work to their advantage. Then he leaned forward. “Hi.” “How you doing?” “What are you reading?” “What’s your name?” “I really like your hair.” “That’s a really nice skirt.” “You must work out.”

It was painful to watch. She clearly wanted nothing to do with him, and he clearly wasn’t going to take the hint. Her rebukes got firmer. “I’d like to read my book.” And he pulled out the social pressure. “Hey, I’m just asking you a question. You don’t have to be so rude.” She started to look around for outs. Her head swiveled from one exit to another.

The thing was, I had already heard this story, many many times. I knew how it would play out. I knew all the tropes. I probably could have quoted the lines before they said them. I wanted a new narrative. Time to mix it up.

So I moved seats until I was sitting behind him. I leaned forward with my head on the back of his seat.

"Hi," I said with a little smile.

He looked at me like I was a little crazy—which isn’t exactly untrue—and turned back to her.

"How are you doing?" I asked.

"I’m fine," he said flatly without ever looking back.

"I really like your hair," I said. “It looks soft."

That’s about when it got…..weird.

He sort of half turned and glared back me, and I could tell I was pissing him off. His eyes told me to back the hell away, and his lips were pressed together tightly enough to drain the color from them completely.

But no good story ever ends with the conflict just defusing. He started to turn back to her.

"Wait, don’t be like that," I said. “Lemmie just ask you one question…"

"What!" he said in that you-have-clearly-gone-too-far voice that is part of the freshmen year finals at the school of machismo.

And I’m not exactly a hundred percent sure why I didn’t call it a day at that point, but…..maybe I just love turning the screw to see what happens. I gave him the bedroomy-est eyes I could muster. “What’s your name?”

Right now I’m sitting here typing out this story, and I’m still not entirely sure why I’m not nursing a fat lip or a black eye. Because that obviously made him so mad that I still am not sure why it didn’t come to blows. There are cliches about eyes flaring and rage behind someones eyes and shit like that that are so overdone. But it really does look like that. When someone gets violent, their eyes just kind of “pop” with intention—pupils dilate, eyelids widen. And his did. Even sitting down he was clearly bigger than me and I was pretty sure he was kind of muscular too, so at that moment I was figuring I was probably going to need an ice pack and sympathy sex from my girlfriend by day’s end.

"DUDE," he shouted. “I’M NOT GAY."

That’s when I dropped the bedroom eyes and switched to a normal voice. “Oh well I could see not being interested didn’t matter to you when you were hitting on her, so I just thought that’s how you rolled.”

Writing About Writing (And Occasionally Some Writing): Changing The Creepy Guy Narrative (via veruca-assault)

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never hit that reblog so fast in my life. 

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Filed under truth and beauty bombs GODDAMN GOD FUCKING DAMN I APPRECIATE DUDES LIKE THIS SO FUCKING MUCH I COULD CRY THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR WHAT YOU DO THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING THANK YOU FOR STEPPING IN JUST CHRIST THANK YOU SO MUCH

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As Arnold points out, there is an otherwise inexplicable shift in direction in the Piccadilly line passing east out of South Kensington. “In fact,” she writes, “the tunnel curves between Knightsbridge and South Kensington stations because it was impossible to drill through the mass of skeletal remains buried in Hyde Park.” I will admit that I think she means “between Knightsbridge and Hyde Park Corner”—although there is apparently a “small plague pit dating from around 1664” beneath Knightsbridge Green—but I will defer to Arnold’s research.

But to put that another way, the ground was so solidly packed with the interlocked skeletons of 17th-century victims of the Great Plague that the Tube’s 19th-century excavation teams couldn’t even hack their way through them all. The Tube thus had to swerve to the side along a subterranean detour in order to avoid this huge congested knot of skulls, ribs, legs, and arms tangled in the soil—an artificial geology made of people, caught in the throat of greater London.

London and Its Dead

i read shit like this and think what could my imagination possibly have to add

like how do i write something about london that’s weirder than london already is?

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drkfvntasy asked: About The New Star wars Movie Only Having One Female Character, I Think It's Because He has To Go Along With The Timeline Of What Happens In The Star Wars Stories And Stuff. He Can't Add New Main Characters Cause Then It'll Ruin The Story.

hellotailor:

i can’t tell if this message is real or a troll/parody. but on the offchance that it’s genuine: the new star wars movies aren’t based on any existing timeline, because disney recently decided that all the earlier star wars extended universe stuff is no longer canon.

after writing about the lack of female characters in the new star wars movie, i’ve seen a lot of responses from people saying that the lack of female characters is fine, because “that’s what the story called for,” which… what??

"the story" is written by a person, who decides how characters will look and behave. it didn’t float into the world full-formed, on the wings of the muse.

in other words, j.j. abrams and his cowriter made a conscious decision to create a universe in which 80% of the important characters are male. in the 1970s, the star wars story “called for” an overwhelmingly white cast, and one female character. in 2014, we’ve progressed far enough that a central cast of 13 people only includes 9 white men, which is (very slow) progress in terms of racial representation, but possibly even worse in terms of the gender divide. and while this may sound like a cold an mathematical way to criticize a movie, it is important for a number of reasons.

star wars is explicitly a family film that plays to worldwide audiences, and makes a huge amount of money from selling toys, video games, etc to its audience. the idea of hiring an 80% male cast is damaging and alienating in many ways, both to its audience and to star wars as a business. not only will women (particularly women of colour) likely feel alienated by the new movie, but Disney will lose a ton of customers who might otherwise go out and buy an action figure for their kid.

this may sound frivolous, but for a lot of people, characters in movies like star wars really matter. at the moment, girls have two choices to identify with in the star wars universe: princess leia, or queen amidala. beautiful royals who know how to shoot a gun. however, boys have a vast array of male characters to look up to, in terms of personality, body type, you name it. star wars is also founded on the “everyman” archetype, in which everyone in the audience is expected to identify with a “normal” young white hero (luke, anakin, han solo, obi wan). in the new star wars cast, there are two female characters: leia, and an unnamed character played by daisy ridley, an attractive young white actress. the fact is that even if a third female character is announced (which is likely) and daisy ridley’s character is the protagonist (less likely), this will still not be enough.

why bother to rationalise a decision that marginalizes women like this? take it for what it is: J.J. Abrams does not want to make a movie that features women in any meaningful context. when he writes a story, that story will inevitable “call for” a cast that specifically caters to a (mostly imaginary) audience of young white male nerds, disregarding everyone else.

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ericnorseman:

Will: I bond with Abigail; you take her away. I bond with barely more than the idea of a child; you take it away. You saw to it that I alienated Alana, alienated Jack. You don’t want me to have anything in my life that’s not you.

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Filed under awful people club I LOVED THAT DIALOGUE BECAUSE HOLY SHIT and hannibal did not deny it at aaaallllll fucking CHRIST that last gif on the left goodddddddddd hnngh just please give me all of this forever this is all i want PLEASE hannibal

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thebicker:

afscme:

Each year we spend billions of dollars subsidizing profits at large international corporations because they refuse to pay their workers a living wage. It is not fair that taxpayers are footing the bill because these companies’ full-time workers are paid poverty wages and require public assistance just to be able to afford their rent and feed their families.If these corporations won’t take action, then we will fight for their workers. Click here to tell Congress to raise the minimum wage: http://afsc.me/1nJkgBK

Bottom line: If you don’t think gigantic fast-food chains should have to pay their employees fairly, then you’re happy footing the bill for them.

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afscme:

Each year we spend billions of dollars subsidizing profits at large international corporations because they refuse to pay their workers a living wage. It is not fair that taxpayers are footing the bill because these companies’ full-time workers are paid poverty wages and require public assistance just to be able to afford their rent and feed their families.

If these corporations won’t take action, then we will fight for their workers. Click here to tell Congress to raise the minimum wage: http://afsc.me/1nJkgBK

Bottom line: If you don’t think gigantic fast-food chains should have to pay their employees fairly, then you’re happy footing the bill for them.

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Filed under it completely blows my mind like defies all belief and logic that the same people who don't support raising the minimum wage also want to get rid of programs like EBT just you're literally saying that people deserve to starve?? that those in poverty should stay there and die??? what is even fucking WRONG WITH YOU